is quite funny actually

i enjoy it more than

those orange sherbet popsicles

which are very appetizing,,,

welll,,,

 

ive been thinkin

you should vote on mypolls

sorry but i like to hear what people think

so if you could do that

it would be nice :]]]]

thankx <33333

omg my teacher (whos awesome) totally gave me a giant lollipop thats liek as big as my head im gonna eat it all on the way home :]

or do they think its dumb and yu should back of

welll i dont know i feel dumb when i hit on them

cause yea i have no chance (obviously)

 

so can u?

ok erik is another guy i really like

and he does have a gf

but they r not that close

neways he never writes anyone notes'

(and we r recently just friends :0)

so hes writing me a note and i feel loved

i mean he doesnt even write his gf notes

:]]]] hahaha in her face

even tho she is really nice

hes mine

*dibs*

what up... welll

 

i really like this guy (for the like 40th time sorry)

but he is simply... amazing

 

and he dyed his hair back to black mmmm

hes wonderful anyways what are guys attracted to (other than sluts)

HELP ME PLEASE...

would i make a good rockstar ???? :]]]]]

i think i would comment me back :]

 

ooo if oyu wana see a funny vid (that includes me) goo to middle school under the username ayane06 at youtube

 

youtube.com/ayane06

 

hahah funny the guy w/ pink hair is the one i like ALOT

yes not... ok sorry randomness

uhmmm i dont know what to right but it was fuckin hot today

almost as hot as the guy im fucking falling in love with

i hate myself

hes another boy wanting sex not love....

his girlfriend is a lucky bitch

but he cheats and made out with her friend

i wouldnt care

i feel like a slut cuz i like my other friends (not that close) boyfriend too hes sweet

and wouldnt cheat

im lost in life should i go for it?

or ignore him hes not worth my time

???

why the fuck does anyone have to cry themselves to sleep at night

nothing in this world is fuckin right

bombs droppin

pill poppin

we need someone to hold on to

and i NEED YOU..............

please comment my polls and my pics and vote please i like to know whats up ooo and check out my oober awesome playlist :]]]]]]]]]]

 

yea im sweet and u know it hahaha

 

<3

ok i really like this guy right and he keeps hinting at sex and it kinda sux i would but he would prolly never date me it blows sooo yea hess oober delicious thoo omfg hes sooo hot he asked me to check out his ass today (request not needed) and damnnnn i would throw on a strapable and fuck himup the ass just to see him nakled lolz

yea well i was walkin home with this really hot guy named grant when all of a sudden he flicks out a lighter and tries like three times to light my boob on fire... yea thankfully he never managed

 

that would fuckin hurt :]]]

ok im just wonderin whoever said i was fuckin fake (w/e your opinion) but why am i fake????

 

what have i ever done to be fake

 

tell me

hmm i like to see what people think :]]]

 

so VOTE ON MY POLLS.....

 

please :]

my friend was talkin about my other bff behind her back so i took a note that said i hate her and showed it to her and one yelled at the other so my friend i told on went to  the fricken guidance consler and i had to talk to her.... i hate her and its sad she cant confront me and she has to tell on me (she knows ill kick her ass :])

 

heheh yea my life

 

my life is none of the guidance counslers bizness

yea i dyed my hair again finally permanent and its black purple and REALLY hot

:]]]]

 

ill post pics

ok one person said they would date me...

 

will that person PLEASE tell me who u r????

 

<33 ya

god i hate our gc she sux she found one of my private notebooks and it said stuff about cutting (i used too) and she called my mom and then i got caught (narks) playin with a lighter (who doesnt) and now she thinks im worthless shit and yea she doesnt care anymore

 

ps i fuckin screwed up once in my life its not like i killed someone so mom get the fuck over it :]]]

WTF they think if they ban public smoking that it will reduce teen smoking all i can say is fuck that its not gonna happen if your addicted its not as easy as another fuckin law.... yea anyways my view...

 

 

hey guys im having trouble finding out what impresses (turns u on) about a girl please email me or comment and help me out :]]]]]]]]]

im bored and i want to make friends and talk sooo please add me i would add u but my computer is messed up right now

omg ok im at school and i was tryin to find the music vid pain by three days grace and i clicked on one not blocked by my school

 ( they block everthin) and im watchin it its like normal then all of a sudden somthin pops up and screams i about shit my pants :[[[[[[[ it was scary

ok i totally just blanked on what i was gonna blog about soooo... hm ok new one i hate all ex boyfriends cuz they dont fucking understand why i broke up with them like the last one... i didnt wana drag him into my depression and shit now hes callin me a skank and shit it bothers me

 

 

 

i need a hug ...:]

im bored will som1 email me plz?

yes i want pic comments if u could lolz thanx luv u <3

yes i finally got to dye my hair again its purple and i cut it shorter and razor bladed it

i went to go eat corn pops but theres no milk:(.... so i ate cheese instead :) but i want my pops sooo i sent mom to go get milk... and fries:0 which is wayyyy better

slammin ur finger in the cuboard.... that sux ... iim real bored and im tryin to beatbox... im dumb anyways... yep my finger hurts my mom broke the shalf in the fridge yesterday glass everywhere kinda funny... i was tryin to shut my blinds when they fell on me.... they must not like me lolz

 

bye-<3

bullet for my valentine is a kick azz band

<333333 it....

Walls Come Crashing Down
Its not very fun
to watch your walls fall one by one
everyday a new pain
but its all just the same sick game
people taunt
I dont get what I want
I wish I could start new
without you
and your childish games
I want life just minus the pains
 
Teardrops
You watch a teardrop fall
wondering about it all
why does everything bad happen to me
why not someone else please
ive had more than my share
people still dont care
its like a curse
you keep making it worse
maybe it will all go away
I hope it will someday
 
Guns
I close my eyes
after many cries
my mind goes blank
I have a gun to thank
 

reflection
 
when you look into the mirror do you see your reflection
because all i see is your armor of protection
why do you try to confide
why do you like to hide
life is not a simple task
living behind your secret mask
people walking by become blind
when they see the mask you live behind
chorus ( the life you wish to resume
is hidden by a costume
people cant see your face
when its hidden in a dark place
life is one big lie
you watch it pass you by
with a blink of an eye
you try and see a door
hidden within the mirror
of your reflection
but all you see is your armor of protection)
all of your memories seem to stir
all into one big picture
everywhere you go images haunt
they laugh at you and taunt

Soundless Secrets
heres a secret you should know
its hard to love when hate is all you know
everyday new pictures emerge in your mind
and everyday sadness is all you find
i dont feel bad for myself i wish it wasnt me
but my vision of life is blocked and i cant see
my world is turning black
and its starting to attack
tears and emotions pour onto paper using no ink
and i can only cry i dont think
years of tears and bloodshed thoughts
i wish my feelings were free not caught
lots of cruel things run through my veins
visions of cuts scars and pain
through my wounds blood is to seep
and that is one secret i have to keep
pouring out the long hard memories
its like a disease
bitting me deep and hard
this is why i am scarred
for all my life i have had a dream
that my life wouldnt seem so different from everyone
this is how my life begun
well this life isnt much fun
fighting
and biting
my tear strucken self
and i cant even cry out for help
inside dying
outside crying
visions and secrets tumble through my mind
and sanity is way far behind
when i write my feelings on paper it is in blood not ink
i cry i dont think
words pouring out of me like a waterfall
it isnt hard at all
ive worked night after night
trying to find and fight
what i feel
now i know what is fake and real
i know the perfect words
im scared and it hurts
my mind is in another game
while my body is taking all the pain
hit after hit im falling
into a deep pit
and theres no way out
its soundproof so no shouts
can be heard above ground
there is nothing no sound

im wonderin if people really read blog... i do i think its cool... basically its poetry.... thats what i do...... thats who i am

 

 

will u b my friend?

 

<3

im sorry im not what you want me to be

im sorry im just one thing and that thing is me

like i wanted to be me like i wanted to be different

thats one thing in life i regret

my heart is torn

i wish i wasnt born

depression is what i am deppresion is me

sad is the only thing ill EVER be....

dont promise me youll be there from the start

then go behind my back and break my heart

dont hold my hand

and "pretend" to understand

cuz if your not really there for me

another day i dont want to see.....

drip drop

my blood says plop

im wondering why and how

im standing in a puddle now

get me out

i want to shout

but my mouth is tied

its.... suicide

i thought about writing a tale

then i thought what if i fail

i thought about writing a line

then i thought too much time

i thought about writing four letters

so i did and life didnt get better

HELP