Shannon


Its been a while since Shannon's death. I havent really dealt with it. Ive pushed it down and put it away. I still dont believe it. I catch myself going to call her, I forget somehow that she isnt going to answer. I hate that she is gone. It isnt fair. She is supposed to be here, she doesnt belong in the ground.To think that never again will I get to see her smile, to think that I will never be able to hear her laugh or watch another movie with her. I hate talking about my bestfriend in the past tense, its just too much. I had poshed it down long enough but a moment ago my mother found a picture of the two of us. It sucks that one part of that picture is just a memory and the only time I will ever see her again is if I open my photo album. It kills me that the last time I saw her alive, I hurt her. I hate myself for being so hard headed. We got in a fight over something so stupid that I cant even rememberwhat it was about. She asked if we could just be best friends again, and I said no. I thought that I had time, and then, my chance to be with my best friend again..was lost. The last time I saw her, she was to the point of tears. It was my fault. I will never forgive myself.

I miss shannon.

and I love her.

I want her back. Right now.


R.I.P.

Emmanuel.-age 17
Shannon.-age 16
Alex.-age 17
Burgen. -age 15
Nick.-age 17
Chad.- age 17