So I Totally Ordered Pizza

And Guess What!

My Car Just Broke!

AND THEY DONT DELIVER!!

WTF!!! LOL!!

this was on myspace just now

and i dont even kno the person!!!!!!

11/8/2009

4:27 AM

ally:):

ur so full of urself but ha guess what? ur ugly, ur a FAG, u wear more make uo than me. i hope u get ur ass kicked but u probably already have.

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4:29 AM

Corey:

lol arent u sweet

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4:29 AM

ally:):

im honest

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4:29 AM

Corey:

thats amazing

thanks XD

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4:30 AM

ally:):

well dude u have 300 pics of urself

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4:30 AM

Corey:

actually 802

most r hidden

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4:30 AM

ally:):

holy shit dude ur not even that hot

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4:30 AM

Corey:

thats amaing, ur 1 out of a million

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4:31 AM

ally:):

ur a fag

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4:31 AM

Corey:

thanks

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4:31 AM

ally:):

no wonder ur girlfriend dumped u

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4:31 AM

Corey:

i dumped her

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4:32 AM

ally:):

yeah cause u finally came out of the closet and realized that u need to stop lying to urself.

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4:32 AM

Corey:

nah, she just wasnt ready in my eyes.

i felt like she needed to be with someone who can see her more than i could.

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4:33 AM

ally:):

i bet this is one of those fake myspaces

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4:33 AM

Corey:

want proof?

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4:33 AM

ally:):

yes

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4:34 AM

Corey:

ok i have no make up on and my hair isnt done so its going to look a bit ehh cuz its 430am lol

ill make sure u can tell its me tho

brb

ill put ally ok?

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4:34 AM

ally:):

so ur gonna upload a pic and name it ally?

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4:35 AM

Corey:

ima send it from my phone to my mobile album (which is hidden) then to my newest pics

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4:35 AM

ally:):

ok. well thats not very good proof so dont bother

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4:36 AM

Corey:

then what do u want me to do?

ill do anything to prove im not fake

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4:36 AM

ally:):

call me

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4:37 AM

Corey:

i swear if i call u and u fucking call me names or w/e then ima hang up

cuz that was not right of u to just coem and do that

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4:37 AM

ally:):

ok

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4:37 AM

Corey:

and i cant stay on the phone for long

whats number?

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4:38 AM

ally:):

well my cell just got shut off so i only have a home phone so u give me ur number and ill call u.

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4:38 AM

Corey:

i can only call from my home phone cuz my cell is only for txting

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4:39 AM

ally:):

ok so can i call u on ur home

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4:40 AM

Corey:

i would pefer me to call u cuz i kinda dont want my house number out cuz my parents dont want everyone calling so i wanna make it private

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4:40 AM

ally:):

well ur numbers gonna show up on caller ID anyways.

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4:41 AM

Corey:

not if i make it private, and idk how this is going to prove im not fake when ur just hearing a voice

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11/8/2009

4:41 AM

ally:):

ok nevermind. it doesnt matter.

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4:41 AM

Corey:

no no i want to prove that ur wrong and im not fake

This friend is not in your IM Friends List.
Add to IM Friends

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4:43 AM

Corey:

??

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4:44 AM

ally:):

oh well it does not matter

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4:44 AM

Corey:

well i dont want anyone thinking im fake

i have alot of fakes out there

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4:45 AM

ally:):

ok i dont think ur fake

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4:45 AM

Corey:

ok why did u just change ur mind?

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4:45 AM

ally:):

cause im cool like that.

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4:46 AM

Corey:

..... ur cool to come call me names, say im fake, and tell me basically my relatiomship was shit...

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4:46 AM

ally:):

yes ma'am

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4:47 AM

Corey:

thats not right. mature up okay?

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4:47 AM

ally:):

oh trust me, im mature.

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4:48 AM

Corey:

i think ur not if u had to come start shit. but u think what u want, byes

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4:48 AM

ally:):

bye

after 5 days

i finally reach rank 1

oh btw

dont say i do nt have a life

i actually have a job, band practice everyday, and chill with friends

and no i dont spam forums

i did before i guess but 'mash' told me i was not allowed to do that so i stopped

thast was 2 days ago

so basically these points r gained from me doing what a normal person does on here

look at all the freaking comments i got man! thats 250 each! *i did the math to make sure and it would beat his points alone*

so dont say i have no life

thanks

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back. And it's not the end of the world.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better know something.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.
I've learned that it's not what happens to people, It's what they do about it.
I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done, when it needs to be done regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't five me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean that they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.
I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you,you will find the strength to help.
I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.
I've learned to love and be loved.
I've learned...

If Anyone Veiws This And Doesnt Want To Read It *ALL* Then Dont Read It At All

The Start.

That first time 8months ago when i saw u.. I felt reborn. I felt new. Revived in a new world. I knew nothing would ever be the same. When i saw you walk up those stairs i couldn't even stay because i was so in shock. All i talked about was u that night to all my friends. " Did u see her? She is gorgeous, Something hit me, A weird feeling, and more." I mean, True Love At First Sight Can Be True Huh?

Every time u looked away from me i always looked at you, But when u looked back i would look away from you and blush. I didn't want to look away but i didn't want u to know i was watching you, Obsessing over you, Lusting u. I didn't want to take my eyes off your *GORGEOUS* blue eyes. Your Amazing Hair, Your soft pale skin. The looks that could kill an angel. It killed me knowing i could walk 7ft and just touch it but u were not mine.

All i did those 2 days u were here is just crave you, I wanted to just take you away. I wanted you to be mine. When you left i felt so sad but in such happiness because u texted me 25/8. I would get a goodnight and a good morning every day from you.

When i finally took down your walls from hurt from past relationships, it made me feel like i succeeded in life. When i asked you out it felt like i took control of the world. I felt like "God".

That next week when you came over and you were *MINE* i felt like i was in a dream because it was true. Our first kiss... WOW... "Did That Really Happen", It did. I never wanted it to go. Cuddling and watching Wall-e, By God That Was A Dream, Besides the part because we were babysitting at the time. But it felt like those were our kids.

When we went to my house, It felt like i was at a new home. Starting a new life. A new life with you. My Love. That whole night i didn't want you to leave my arms and either my sight. The first time we had sex and you told me you cried because it was so special to you....... That you wished i was your first, That you wished you never got touched before me.....Made My World Turn Backwards. Made Me Feel Like God Once More.
I wanted to wake up every morning next to you. Wake up to your face that made my heart beat fast like every time i touch, see you, or even hear your name.
I wanted.. well wait.. NEEDED you. Needed it to last forever. I Felt happy when i would play my keyboard and you would fall asleep to it. Now i know i don't suck at it.

I WOULD KILL ANY GUY HOW WOULD TOUCH YOU!

When the months flew by and we didn't text and talk as much, I knew things would start going in a different direction.

When i found out u had that moment with jimmy..
When i *Finally Trusted *YOU** And you shot it down.. And kept shooting it down..
When you slept at other guy's houses and they slept at yours..
When you kissed and held someone else's hand..
When you lied to me many times..
When you tired keeping stuff from me..
When you would go and do things behind my back..
And More.... Alot More..
I still gave you love, I gave you all the chances in the world, I would Take You Back, I still *tried* to trust you.
I knew someday you would be perfect.
Someday....

Those Romantic Moments.
When i set up my candle lit room. Had you cover your face and led you into my room. Made you stand in the middle as i ran to turn on our song and ran back to you and uncovered your beautiful blue eyes and told you i loved you and gave you a kiss. As we cuddled after.. It felt like a dream.
When we would take a shower and turn the water off and just lay there in the tub till we almost fell to slumber. A Dream.
When i had music going and pulled you out of dylan's car and slow danced with you in the rain. It felt like another dream.
When i gave you that *Ring*, That was heaven right there.
And Many More Moments, All of them felt like a romantic movie. A book that you wanted to come true.

All those pictures we took, Memories building. Our laughs, Our Cries, Our Love, Our Hate. Will Always mean something to me.

I needed to be close to you 25/8. When i would cuddle i made sure every body part touched. I needed to be twined by you. Every time you had to leave, I would cry. At night i would be laying in my bed alone and call your name and you would not answer. I would reach for you and you would be gone. It felt like i was dreaming the whole relationship, But i knew i really wasn't.

I loved it how you were there with me, anywhere i would go. Walks, My bands photo shoot, and more. I know i didn't go many places but i still loved it.
I loved how you helped me to try and get over my anxiety. How you told me i would be ok when i would start to freak, Made me feel.. cant even explain it.

When we got into our fights and i would freak and try to hurt my self, How you would hold my hands down, Told me you loved me, That you were there and always would be, You would never let me go. That made me feel like i was actually really being cared for. And at the end you would rock me to sleep. To tell you the truth, Sometimes i would fake it just so you would do that to me. Just so i could hear all those words again.

All those fights we had, Were not ment to hurt. They were to show you what had to be fixed. I know i poked at you but *WE BOTH* wanted to fix it all.
That one fight.. Break up.. When you pushed me and wouldn't let me move.. when you broke up with me and told me you wished i fucking died... It killed soooo bad.
When you sent me the video of you cutting, It scared me. Also the one were i gave you the *RING*...
Made me fall from heaven.

It ment so much that you still loved me, Even when you knew my past, My mental problems. My whole life, Not many people know about. You even tried to help.

When we would talk about our future, Where we would live, Our Kids Names. Bella And Skyler. If they would go to church lol ^ ^, Our jobs. And even our ending. Made me feel like it would all come true.

But

Everything came crashing down.

I LOVED and LOVE you so much, I WISH this would not end this way,
I WISH that i could of helped you, Stayed in your life.
Still hold you, Kiss you, Care for you. Make our future actually happen.
Live in a small house with a boy and a girl, take you guys on tour when and if my band ever makes it.
I WISH this would still go on.
but it died, i died.
Like Most of my lyrics
example: I cared for you, Did You Know That, I never wanted this to go, Never, I want you, I need you, Your my everything, And I Love You.
I ment them all and still do.
Im so sorry this had to turn out the way it did. I will never ever be the same.
I Give Up with these so called relationships. TO EVERYONE. All they do is hurt.

You made me feel like a god many times, made me feel like i could fly, made me see my future. what i wanted!!! want i needed!!! i neeeded your love!! NEEDED. i cant stand to not see me without u!!! but i have to now!! I DONT WANT THIS TO GO OMG!!! NO NO THIS CANT BE TRUE!!! BUT IT IS!! IM NOT DREAMING! ITS TRUE... this is true


I could not hold anyone the same again, kiss, touch, say i love you, ANYTHING the same again....

As i sit here and hold your *RING* and cry...

I Just Wish This Would Turn Out Different. That I Could Take You 1 Last Flight To My Heaven.

I Will Always Love You Carolyn Anne Schultz

Forever And Ever We Shall Be........ Just A Dream.
And I Woke Up.

Good Bye... Cam.

3/8/09 - 10/19/09


Im So Confused And My Mind Is Weird And All Of It Doesn't Come To Mind Right Away So I Will Be Adding On.

~=*Add Ons*=~

I will miss your gorgeous blue eyes. The pale skin that made me jealous. The touch from you, The Kisses from you, Everything..

What did i do to get all this?

Every relationship i have been.. I have gotten used, cheated on, lied to. Ive only cheated 3 times in my whole life. Last time was a year ago. I never flirted when i was with you, Never lied, Kept secrets.. NOTHING.. But that's all i get in return huh?

Did you know i did anything in my power for you! I held you when you cried, Gave you advice, Helped you through good and bad times. I gave you more chances then most people would. I did more than most people would. I took you under my wings to be safe when you were broken. I forgave you for the things you did. Over and over and over and over again. But you took that to your advantage. You knew for every mistake you did... I would take you back and forgive you. Who does that now?

I overdosed on painkillers and went to the hospital, I tried hanging myself, I beat myself fucking stupid over you.. I hurt myself so bad because of the stress...

But Why Couldn't All Of This Just Work Out?
Why couldn't you understand that i loved you and the shit you did hurt me? That should of made you stop! Why couldn't you just get that every time you made a mistake.. Maybe don't do stuff like that again? But it kept coming..

You wanted me in your life so bad you had to mess up *Again*?
Its going to take a *Miracle* for me to take you back.


~More Add On's~

Remember when we would lay outside at night on the hill at the side of my house? We would watch the stars, Think, And talk.
Watching the stars with you made me feel like... Its hard to explain. Feels like you can just fly up to one and touch it? With a acoustic tune. Well that's how i felt.
You would lay me on you and just.... Have that moment. That moment watching the stars. They never shined untill you were next to me.

Do you remember that one fight. You called your dad at around 3am to go home because we were fighting. You got all your things and put them out front. When you came back in to get something and i walked out and the same time and slipped the ring into your hoodie and walked to the hill. You followed crying begging me to take it back. When i dropped to my knee's and not cried but in a gaze. Well i never told you what was in that gaze moment so here.

*Did i make a mistake, giving her the ring. If i didn't make a mistake.. would it work out? What if i took it back. How would it turn out then? Should i just run into the woods and not be found? Hurt myself? Would the ring help her remember this night?*

When i would try and walk away and you would follow still begging me to take it back.
When i closed your hand with the ring inside and pressed it to your heart. When i put my finger to your lips so you would be silent to listen. And i said
*From My Heart To Yours, Just Remember That*
It was true

Carolyn. This pray. I would pray to you. But instead of "Lord" It would be you.

Please lord i pray, Don't ever let me be alone, I know you are going to be by my side, I know the way, When i lose sight through all my fears, I'll think of you and there will be no more tears, As i lay me down, Help me forget these tragedy's turning into these memories.