H0GA here. and this is what i say about emlaa ::
lets see... she loves my wierd animal noises.
we have the best sleepovers, especially when im crunkk. she loves it when i dance in my amazing santa suit she got me. and she loves to put her hand down my braa. we have a sleep over every weekend as logn as one of us aint sick (:
oh yeah, she loves my drawings.

p.s. we got dicks like jesusss.

hopeeisdopee x3 (4:27:52 PM): we are suppossed to get 3 inches an hour.
EmlaLovesJasonx3 (4:27:58 PM): BAHAHHAHAHAA
EmlaLovesJasonx3 (4:28:02 PM): rotflmsfcdopmrn!
hopeeisdopee x3 (4:28:10 PM): NOT THAT WAY.
hopeeisdopee x3 (4:28:16 PM): damn, i'd be China by now.
hopeeisdopee x3 (4:28:17 PM): XD
EmlaLovesJasonx3 (4:28:18 PM): I GAGGED!
hopeeisdopee x3 (4:28:39 PM): from me?
hopeeisdopee x3 (4:28:40 PM): awww
hopeeisdopee x3 (4:28:41 PM): .XD
EmlaLovesJasonx3 (4:32:46 PM): yessir
EmlaLovesJasonx3 (4:32:47 PM): Xd
hopeeisdopee x3 (4:33:15 PM): i can feel the love


OKAY! so me, im Emily, I really dont give a shit what you say about me or decide to use as a sexy nickname. I love random people and in person im uber shy. I am loud and abnoxious with my friends and I am using a far over expanded vocabulary on this. XP
so for real. Just hit me up on aim, tbykosteroliver
or a7xskilletx3
I have eight so if I dont have them then email me for it. I am truely a fuck up on meds so ive beat myself up more than anyone else can affect me. I always fuck up affect and effect. I am very boring at times but..mehh, who isnt? I'm too honest and people often tell me i'm mean, seriously, I just say what other people keep in their heads. So, if you need criticism, just tell me. I cant lie to save my life, so dont worry. if anyone tries to fuck with Hoga they have another thing coming. So yeah, I really dont know what to say. Don't be shy. Oh, and im sorry that i'm perverted. (: I am a music addict and I am often contimplating suicide. I do cut, I dont care what you say. I cry a lot, and I am always told I am a skank, slut, whore or otherwise. I dont even care anymore, people who say it dont know me. I dont like people getting close to me, and I dont want to get hurt. What else is new? I'm a texting addict and I write. I hate my dad and sometimes my mother too. I want to go home, yet im supposedly there. I cant stand the place im in and I want to leave to be with someone who can say "I love you" and mean it. I dont think ive gotten that yet. Ive been to a mental hopital and overdosed twice. First time, I had no clue what I took, they were just perscription meds on my microwave, they were suppose to make you not throw up. I took about 45 of those and 20 mood stabalizers. That was last summer. Or two summers ago. I dont remember, I didnt go to the hospital and im fine now. I overdosed on Tuesday February 17th 2009. I was in the hospital for two days, then went to the mental hospital for 6.5 days. I met some people there and they can understand me a lot better than most. One is Mariah and she recently made an ee. Don't say shit about her. That would be greatly appreciated. My friend Trace is amazing, he's the most amazing gay guy in the world. I love him very much and I want him to be with me everyday but I cant ever see him. He's the funniest most caring person I know and surprisingly still hasnt given up on me..he really should. He talks me out of suicide constantly and he is simply perfect. I love him more than air.<3


P.S....I burst out into song often. (:


Songs written about me XPP:

Avenged Sevenfold.
Hopes Die Last.
Escape The Fate.
Hollywood Undead.
Madina Lake.
Mayday Parade.
The Blaqk Year.
The Spill Canvas.
Eve 6.
Hinder.
Linkin Park.
Bring Me The Horizon.
BrokeNCYDE.
Skillet.
Thirty Seconds To Mars.
Tokio Hotel.
Flyleaf.
Taking Back Sunday.
The Medic Droid.
Mickey Avalon.
Paramore.
Jack's Mannequin.
Thousand Foot Krutch.
Jamestown Story.
My Favorite Highway.<3
All Time Low.
Cute Is What We Aim For.
Fall Out Boy.
Panic! At The Disco.
Papa Roach.
Framing Hanley.
& many moreee.<33

jason dale oliverrr.
hope elizabeth gallant-duffy.
AND PUPPIES.
-Hoga










music
knives
AIM!
uhm, my minimal amount of friends
our amazing sleepovers and coversations
randomness
my drums<3
rockband! XP [[only drums]]
writing shit
Texting.
being honest to skanks/preps.
Black
Red
Lime Green
Smirnoff.
people that dont jugde others
being alone
cutting
playing with razor blades

uhm...
people that eat puppies.
-Hoga

school...
eating
preps
ignorant people
my father
leaving my room.
homophobes
people who are wayyy too full of themselves
anyone who says shit about my friends.
myself.
cheaters.

pikachuu is my heroo. <3
[[actually The Rev, but Hoga can say that. XP]]

Honestly, Hoga and Jason. Professionally, yes, The Rev, but Hoga's been here for me forever. She's the only one that truely trusts me. We're more of sisters, thank anything. No matter what, we will be together forever in the future.

Then there's Jason...

I could type forever about him and not run out of things to say. I love him with all of me, and he's a true inspiration. He understands me, he wont give up. He wont realize how amazing he is, so i'll just keep telling him until he gets it through his head that i'm not lying. he says the most perfect things. Even though he thinks i'll leave him for Sam Koster. lmao. He's one of the few people that puts a smile on my face.

I asked him what his favorite thing about me is:
"I love all of you. Your perfect i mean we fight.. ALOT.. but that doesnt change how madly in love with you I am.. I mean i guess if i had to pick i would say your smile.. haha.. I guess cuz to me its not just a smile. You seem so depressed sometimes and yesturday on cam when i saw you smile... It just made me happy to know that you are happy at times and just seeing you smile makes me Happy."
"I dont want anyone else. I want you. Emily Ann Lawrence. The only girl that makes my heart pound fast, The only girl that makes me laugh so hard and feel wanted, the only girl who has all of me. The only girl who knows what to say to make me better, or what to say to make me want to in ways i didnt think were even possible. Im so in love with you. My Emily, My fiancee."
"Im never going to let you go baby, I know i can be confusing. But you never do anything wrong. We just have our times but i only do what i know is true. Everything will be okay. Ill always be around to make sure your taken care of, that people dont treat you badly. Your everything anyone could want. and im so gald I have you. Thats why i get so scared so jealous. So many people like you em and Im just afraid that yuo will like one of them more. Its why i get to protective, close up. Imm scared of losing you. Im afraid of looseing you to Tristan, to sam, to matt, to some other person. It just scares me but im so in love with you and i want only you forever. My heart will ALWAYS be yours. No mattter what"
so yeah.