that your just plain tired
of the world and you just want to be left alone.


Well thats how i felt most of my life.


I screen majority of my calls.


Dont really feel like doing school work or anything at all really.


(im home schooled)
Im pretty much alone most of the time at home and sometimes when im out
i really dont feel like hanging out with people thats much but i know i will.


I just wanna go someplace with just one person where its quiet
peaceful calm no children around, no noise whatsoever just a soothing place and just not say a word just lie in the grass,
and look at the clouds and have all my troubles float away within those clouds.


I dont know why i want someone with me and not talk about anything its just a me thing i guess...... i just want a life where i could just not have to deal with problems, drama, issues of any sort and just run away from them like i have been all my life i want a life where it can be peaceful and not hectic all the time.


Well i guess what im trying to say is.... i wanna get away be free from lots of people and just hang with one person who will understand me and my awkwardness get what im about and have them see the me that i want them to see im not always happy and loud, most of the time im sarcastic, calm, quiet , and zone out alot but yet im very caring and sensitive and i struggle with most decisions and questions that come at me not many people have seen that side of me only about 2 have but they dont realize they have cause they have never seen me act that way before. I just wish people would not worry about me so much when i get all quiet and they just assume that something is wrong with me when in all actuality im just being me.


I dont want people to think this just some random vent that im typing but more of a Confession of how i’ve been feeling for years now.


Maybe my friend Scott is right maybe i really am depressed.


I’m not sure but i want to be sure that im not but i guess im too afraid to ever find out if i am or if im not. Myself and the world will never know.


Maybe its for the better that no one knows anything about me really but then again maybe its not, maybe just maybe
i might tell someone everything about me someday it might be a friend, a boyfriend, a friends parent , my mom , or maybe even someone i barley know
on this little site we all call myspace.

I have NO courage whatsoever
to say this to someones face but yet the courage to tell all of you who read this
so the best way i can put it as is..........

My Confession Of How I Dont Want To Be Me
Anymore

but be someone better but that will never happen
so i guess they best way to better myself is to not
pretend like im happy all the time but  be the
Sarcastic, Calm, Quiet , and Zoned out
little girl i’ll always be