Happy Fucking New Year, kid.
Celebrate it with a razor and a wrist.
Happy Fucking New Year, kid.
You got your fucking wish.
New Year's Resolution,
New Year's fucking pain.
You get to wash it all away,
See it swirling down the drain.
"I wish I could fucking die,
Tell this shithole farewell."
You got your wish, kid.
Now fucking go to hell.
No one wants to listen,
No one wants to care.
It's just like it used to be,
Last fucking New Year.
Your soul was drained and empty,
The vodka never helped.
So you took your little razor blade,
And cut the fuck outta yourself.
Your wrist it hurts,
Your eyes they sting.
But you don't want to fucking see,
Another happy Spring.
So Happy Fucking New Year, kid.
Celebrate it with a razor and a wrist.
Happy Fucking New Year, kid.
You got your fucking wish. | I'm so alone
Physically, emotionally
I can't remember the last time I really smiled
My life has been reduced to sitting in my room and crying my eyes out with a fucking razor.
I can't even cry anymore.
I've forgotten what it is to laugh
To smile
To love
To live.
I've forgotten life
I've forgotten everything I found familiar
I don't know whether or not to just end it
Because obviously no one wants me alive.
If you're going to comment on this,
Don't be hateful.
I think hate is really the last thing I need right now.
I don't care that I sound whiney.
I don't care that I'm pathetic.
I'm so fucking alone.
-Chase | Random banana.
I have no idea.
I realized I haven't posted a blog in forever.
I highly doubt anyone will read this, but...psh. Whatev.
If your life is falling into hell,
Grab a pistol, take a pill.
And if your hand begins to shake,
Pull the trigger, no more mistakes.
A bullet to the temple, a bullet to the brain,
No one can understand your pain.
"I hate you," they say,
"I love you," they lie,
And that is why you want to die.
No where to turn, you scream and run,
And grab that shiny loaded gun.
So, my life has been...odd recently.
In the past 3 months, I've gone through 3 girlfriends.
Uber lame.
I hope my current gf(Natasha) and I stay together for a long time.
Why am I saying this? No idea.
I have the screamo version of Low(by Brokencyde) stuck in my head.
It's pretty freakin awesome. Seriously lol
Yeah that's about it.
~Mike~ | I haven't been on here in forever.
But I'm back so...HI!
I dyed my hair red and purple.
It's pretty cool lol
Um...message meh if you wanna talk.
It's my b-day soon. 10/12.
Yeah I have no idea what else to say.
Oh! More people commit suicide in September than any other month.
Happy September! :D
Love,
Michael | I feel like my soul has been ripped out.
I'm a fucking hollow shell.
I feel so fucked when I think of how stupid I am.
I barely feel anything but pain.
I have nothing left.
I can't go a day without thinking of suicide.
I don't know why, I hate suicide.
I just can't think.
I had her.
She fucking kept me going.
She kept me thinking I'd go another day.
She kept me fucking alive.
Now, she doesn't give a shit.
I love her. I love her so damn much it hurts.
I'm trying to move on, I can't do it.
I need to get away.
I need to run.
Fuck it all.
I'm screwed anyway.
Every time I think about her, I feel happy.
Then I start to cry
Because I know she doesn't care
I know she hates me.
Hates who I am.
Hates what I believe.
Hates every fiber of my being.
When I see she's online,
I get off the computer.
I can't talk to her anymore.
I want her to be happy, and I'm not the one to do that.
I just...I can't let go of her.
I'm so fucked.
~~Lynn~~ | Oh my Kira...I am back from the Gay Pride Parade. There were naked lesbians *drool* Gaaa.....*sniffle* I wish I had a girlfriend...there were couples left and right! I felt so aloooone! (Not an online girlfriend. Don't leave comments with numbers or whatever, I'm not interested.)
And it was awkward. Cause I hadn't come out to my mom yet. So we were standing by a fountain and I was just like, "Mom, I'm a lesbian." and she looked at me, smiled, looked away, and said nothing. XD It was funny!
Yeah that's about it lol
Oh and I got a t-shirt that says:
Don't hate me because I'm a lesbian,
Hate me because I stole your girl.
It's pimp lol
And I have a rainbow ribbon pin with a charm that says 'Love'
And a rainbow plastic chain necklace
And a dogtag with a rainbow on it. On the back it says 'Seattle Pride; Out and Proud'
I wore flip flops to the parade and my feet hurt like hell from all the walking lol
Now I'm done lol
Peace & Love,
~~Lynn~~ | They kick uber ass. No?
I love Avenue Q.
| I can't decide what song to use as my profile song.
You Are My Friend - Naruto Shippuuden opening 1
Naruto Season 6 Opening (My current song)
Swing Life Away - Rise Against
Not While I'm Around - Sweeney Todd
Johanna - Sweeney Todd
Ever Ever After - Carrie Underwood
Which one should I use? >.<
| Lol I got a new haircut and I look like one of The Beatles.
Dude it's trippy!
I woke up this morning and my mom was like, "You're going in for a trim today"
So we went to the hair place and then I decided I wanted it short
It turned out different than I expected XDD
I look like one of The Beatles
So my mom and I went into Winslow
And we went to Paper Products
AND I GOT HIPPIE SUNGLASSES
You know, the little round ones
I got two pairs
One red pair
And one that fades from yellow to purple
TRIPPY!
Love,
~~Lynn~~
(I'll post pics if people want. It looks weird but cool lol) | Anyone know a good website to watch anime on for free?
I can't find anywhere for Fruits Basket or Chrno Crusade...
Help please?
~Lynn~ | My dad got these FUCKIN HUGE iPod speakers and put them in our LIVINGROOM
Worst decision he ever made XDDD
I'm blasting RISE AGAINST in the livingroom
I went out on the front lawn and I could still hear it
BOOYA!
I love it, dude!
I love Rise Against.
They're definately my all-time favorite band.
Ever listened to them?
If not, please go listen to them right now.
They kick ass
~~Lynn~~
| Omg! YAY!
I got out of school early today
At 1:30 in the afternoon
So I could go and get my hair cut.
I spent 5 and a half hours
In a salon chair.
They bleached it,
Washed it,
Parted it,
Cut it,
Dried it,
Thinned it,
Foiled it blue,
Dyed it pink,
Took it all out,
Washed it,
Cut it...again,
Dried it,
Trimmed it,
Thinned it,
Straightened it,
And then I was free.
God it looks so awesome.
It looks like Davey Havok!(kind of, lol)
I hope Maddy likes it <33
I'm putting pics up, so go see! ^_^ Yay!
~~Lynn~~ | I have a gay friend named Eric
And he's looking for a boyfriend.
He's not quite 'emo' but he's still a cool guy.
He's 6'2", caucasian, light brown hair, brown eyes, and wears glasses.
He dresses slightly dressy, and is all for freedom and gay pride.
He's most definately a fem.
He can bake and cook, he enjoys politics and many other topics, and he's almost 15.
Anyone want to talk to him? He's open to date any gay or bisexual guys. | It took so long
But I'm actually happy.
Finally I can smile again.
I can't wait to see her tomorrow.
Hear her laugh,
See her smile.
This weekend away is killing me.
I got her a present.
And we've been talking almost non-stop all day.
This feeling, this sense of freedom
I love it.
I never want it to end. | I need your guys' opinion.
It's a really vain subject
But...am I fat?
I just got called fat again.
I try to make a joke out of my weight
And be like, "I have blubber and you're just jealous"
But it really gets to me, you know?
Being like 60 pounds heavier than most of my friends
I don't even feel right eating around them.
I need your honest opinion
Am I fat? | | |
