i am so lost in this world.


and yet i keep looking for myself.


he will never realize anything i see.

i know exactly how he is.
i know what he is looking for.

but i cant help him.
he has one stuborn mind.


i love him with all of my heart.
i would give the world to him.

and i finally see what needs to be done.


ill let him decide what he wants.

even if i kill myself emotionally.

if he is happy, i need to stop being so selfish.


I just want him to be skin deep.
and he doesnt feel the same.


i can feel it.
he doesnt.

its my luck.

the person i love is falling away from me.

i feel so putrid.
and low.
i feel so buried.


i will wait for him,
as long as i can.....

i just wish he could see how much he truley means to me.
everyone else understands...
but him.

im gonna be strong now.

i am going to stop acting like this.
i am going to stop crying.